In the last few weeks, I have noticed a recurring theme that has come up in my healing sessions with clients. A theme of “I am protecting myself by numbing myself. I’ve numbed myself so much that I can’t even recognize the emotions I have stuffed deep down into the recesses of my mind, and deep down into my belly. I can’t really feel anything. Why?”
We have so many clever ways of protecting ourselves when we are born into our life. Going into that freeze mode of our sympathetic system’s fight, flight, freeze response is one of them.
This theme of numbing ourselves by going into “freeze” is one I am all too familiar with.
I froze when I watched a burning pile of garbage blow up in my friend’s face and burn her skin off when I was 3 years old.
I froze when I was 5 years old and saw my little brother fall 3 feet onto concrete and lie still from a crack in his skull. I’m so thankful he was absolutely fine in the end, but my body and my emotions still froze in that moment I thought he was gone, and I didn’t know what to do.
I froze when I was 8 years old and went to a refugee camp in Ethiopia, seeing the endless lines of starving people holding little wooden bowls, lining up for soup.
I froze when my first love said things to me that felt so cruel, I could feel my heart breaking over and over again.
I cocooned myself into this protective and safe cloak of numbness for practically my whole life.
Protective, until I realized the numbness did not actually make things easy, or ok, or joyful in my life. It just masked everything, and diluted everything. I felt stuck without knowing why.
I didn’t know what I was missing…
…until I did.
Breathwork Healing has given me so much space around all of the parts of me I have shut down. It has helped me to feel again. To really connect to joy and love, and a feeling of freedom I didn’t know was possible.
Now I know that one of the only ways to really heal something is to FEEL it.
Join me in this active breath meditation on Saturday 16 May 2020, and connect to your ability to feel again.
3pm London : 10am New York : 7am LA : 10pm Singapore
Personal Investment : 90 minutes : £20 (approximately $25 USD)
* You will also receive a recording, after the class
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